He has always made me feel like I'm the problem. He cheated, but I'm the problem bc I don't want to wrk things out. I don't want to give out a millionth chance. I'm so broken. I'm 4 months pregnant, and decided to move into an apt by myself. I can't until December 4th. Last night I was asleep and he came back from the bar with a few friends, and they were loud. They woke me up at 3AM & at 4 I left to my friends to sleep on her couch. He says bc it's his apt he can do whatever he wants. Which is fine, but really your pregnant ex gf is sleeping and you have no respect at all? I'm just so tired of fighting. He's always trying to manipulate me. Says he wants a family, but goes out to party all night half the week. I can't trust him bc he's cheated. Gone out of his way to pursue girls. Even knowing all this why do I still feel like everything is my fault? That I could be more laid back and not get so upset over things, and that bc I'm giving up my child will miss out on their father. I grew up with my mom and my dad, so I don't want my child to grow up with just me. It's just emotionally draining. So much so, we just argued about last night and I got so upset that he thinks he's entitled to wake up bc I didn't have work today I just started crying and had a panic attack. Not once did he even check on me. I just need words of encouragement to get me through the month. I sometimes have negative feelings toward my baby bc I don't want this situation and it makes me feel like a shitty person. I'm sticking it out but it's really hard when I don't want to be in this world sometimes.