I'm dealing with several issues that make implantation hard for me. This month I had a very faint line, I knew not to get my hopes up but I did anyways as I miscarried today after 7 days of knowing the results. I'm torn I have now lost 5 and have 3 live very thankful for my 3 and my middle had several health issues herself from hereditary genes. I've always wanted 4 since as far back as I remember. I'm shut down to my husband which he is use to but still not fair to him. My 3 didn't know so I can't show any emotions and as soon as everyone was asleep I lost it emotionally. I'm trying again next month but with the help of preseed and conceiveeasy. So I'm hoping for the best but I also know my chances. Also in January I was diagnosed with cervical precancer and my ob/gyn just wants to do 6 month paps to watch it so I only have a short window to get my last child if it decides to involve into cancer, fingers crossed my body fights it but idk part of me says accept it won't happen and ask for a partial hysterectomy for the precancer but another part says go for your dream of 4 children. I'm know I'm rambling and I'm sorry I just need to express myself somewhere. I figured you ladies would understand my all over the place thought process.