Am I crazy or do I just have a good heart

The first guy I ever truly fell in love with is the same guy who broke my heart, the same guy that I cried for weeks over, the same guy that I still cry for today, I still pray for him because even though he truly hurt me I never had a bad time with him, we never faught or argued, it was always laughs and fun and games, I can only think of the possitive when I think of him. I still pray for him every night and think of him every morning and I still love him. Am I crazy??