First negative test

Hello!

This week I've had my first negative. I should have gotten my period on Monday, I didn't, I took a test on Tuesday, negative, but I thought it was too early. Since I left the pills my period had been very punctual. Today I took another test, negative again. I still don't have my period.

I know it's not easy to get pregnant the first month but I had been dreaming of it and today I felt like crying all day. Is it like this every month? How do you do not to make illusions?

It may seem stupid for those of you who've been years trying, I know, but I'm not a patient person!!!