I don't feel loved. I never have. I grew up with abuse. I'm still suffering abuse and I have horrible anxiety that's ruining my only good relationship. I have no friends. I go to therapy. All I want Is to move in an apartment with my bf and have enough food to eat more than twice a day. When I turn 18 (next month) my mom is basically dis-owning me. I have to pay for everything myself: food, therapy, makeup everything. I have 2 younger sisters that get babied and stay out till 5 in the morning and all I do is stay home and chill the fuck out but that's still something I'm doing wrong... I feel trapped.