For Christmas I decided I wanted to take my husband to his favorite NFL teams game. I've got his mom to help with the tickets since I wanted to get the best tickets which were right at the field. He has absolutely no idea, and just thinks id like to travel the weekend before Christmas just to getaway and try something new! I also got him a few NFL sweaters and we decided while we were down there we would celebrate Christmas! Best idea I know! I'm beyond excited to see his reaction when he opens his gifts and has them tickets! I just can't help, but wonder if I should continue and through with it. I say this because I found out my husband cheated on me with a girl from work which he said it meant nothing. I just can't help, but wonder if that's true. I know him and I were going through a rough patch at the time, and I know that's no excuse, but he says he just felt like I didn't want to be with him anymore and wanted attention and she kept giving it to him. Which I have to admit she was very persistent, even when he tried to get her back off before they had relations she would just keep trying. It's been 2 months since I found out and I keep wondering if I'm ever going to get past it. We are going to couples therapy and he apologizes, blames himself, won't let me take any blame, and before he blocked the girl from his contacts he told her not to ever contact us again and to stay out of our lives, and that he wished he never met her because she ruined his life. I mean, hey at least he's trying right? Any advice? I could sure use some. Especially since my self esteem from finally being high to an all time low. I don't know why I compare myself to her, but I do. I know I'm beautiful, but I can't help, but wonder what she had/has that I don't. Of course my husband says nothing, except she was giving him attention, but... Maybe I'm just blowing it way out of proportion. Help. Please.