I'm to stressed to fall asleep! I lay awake from 10pm to 5am then pass out and wake up at 1pm. This is not healthy for baby and me. I honestly don't know how to calm down. Ladies can you help me out. #1 My boyfriend he was awful, mother in law worse. I ended up having to just walk away. I lay awake thinking if he's even thinking about his first baby. I think if he ever loved me and why I believed him. I'm angry at his mom the way she acts. I feel upset. Next problem #2. I don't feel ready to be a mother. I am scared. #3 I am overwhelmed with financial stress, managing a hospital bill I went to the ER. Now I'm managing thinking about what I need to buy before the baby arrives btw unemployed! #4 driving lessons trying to learn how to drive before baby arrives. I was in a domestic violence relationship guy bashed my head into the car I couldn't learn traumatized now I'm stronger. #5 social anxiety, I grew up traditional. I'm just embarrassed about being pregnant. I can't take it anymore. I'm hiding my pregnancy. I'm five months! My mom has been eyeballing my belly telling me to suck it in she knows. The pregnancy wasn't planned but God I feel so judged being told hide my belly. Not telling anyone. Just I have no f ing idea what to say to anyone. Pregnancy was unplanned, relationship failed. I'm pregnant not married not working guy walked out pushed himself out because of domestic violence abusing me I had no choice. So now what what do I tell society oh I got knocked up by someone I loved and the relationship .. what do I do honestly that's what has me so stressed out I feel like I'm in hiding. I'm tired of it I'm sick of the psychological abuse I'm tired of feeling like a failure. I just feel like I do everything. I feel like crying. Honestly I don't know what to do. I know my mom cares, but how do I stand up for myself. How do I accept this pregnancy. I don't want to buy a ring and lie to people I just want to have a healthy pregnancy. So many of you are happy. I just don't want to struggle anymore. I told my mom about the Indian young lady who threw her baby. She said it was because of culture that she was afraid of her parents. She said its only accepted here in America children out of wedlock ugh I can feel the disapproval in her eyes. I asked her are you even sorry about the baby and the girl throwing her life away. She just said she wasn't going to say anything because I'd get upset but omg that's heartless pisses me off she had two babies out of wedlock and got married right before she had me! How did she handle society being a single mom. I am stressed. I need support not some one being hateful. Maybe it's my pregnancy hormones. But seriously that's my huge problem. Being a single mom has me embarrassed. My dad even asked what lie do we tell people he's in Afghanistan. I'm like why just say the truth. I honestly need love but only my parents know. I feel ashamed like what would my Aunt say that I threw my life away? What about everyone else. I just hate feeling like this. I hate some of the things my mom says. She said its better not to have children because you never know how they will turn out. Honestly I just all my life driven nuts by that woman do you here the alternative meaning behind that like she wishes I was never born. She called me a slut at 15 she was angry I got my period. All my life. Nothing was good enough. I honestly feel bad for myself for the first time because of this baby, I have to worry about my mental and physical health and how people treat me. Please don't judge me I just had to express myself on here