First tww frustration

Catherine • I have a 22 month old son and it took us about a year and a half to conceive him after we suffered an ectopic pregnancy which caused me to lose one of my fallopian tubes, ttc rainbow after mc.
I'm in the middle of my first tww since my period returned after my mc. I am having some early symptoms and I just keep psyching myself out. I want to be hopeful yet terrified that it is all in my head. It's so frustrating/nerve wracking!!!!