i guess i wont be seeing baby #3

husband decided to separate from us after a heated discussion over his unaccepted behavior.. he is a constant drinker and partygoer and has refused to change his behavior..well he was offended by some words i chose to use during the argument which i regret but it was said...so he decides to break the relationship and turn the guilt on me since it was because of his behavior that we argued... he refuses to return home and wont accept my apology for my language use and wont answer his phone..now this is my spouse who i married and have a family with and i feel like im battling with a boyfriend..smh..i have said my peace and im praying for all to change..i have put a hold on the ttc for awhile and plan to get back on bc method..smh