Not feeling very hopeful

It was a weird fertile week. We fought two mornings in a row after I got my positive opk on Sunday. So needless to say we weren't feeling very intimate. It sucks because we really wanted to, and I told him during our argument that I felt like he was fighting just so we wouldn't have sex on our most fertile day! In reality I think it was me that's scared. After 2 mc I'm scared to go through it all again but all I want is a baby! I'm so frustrated :(