Really sad

Pansy • Hi I'm a mother of two little girls. Found out I'm expecting my third the day after Christmas. Excited and hoping for a boy this time.
I know there is so many of y'all ladies that struggle with ttc and many have for years. I probable seem silly for being so down about another month of seeing a negative. But it just gets me so depressed, thinking bout what could be wrong with me. My husband and I have two beautiful little girls, I should be happy but I have been wanting and praying for a son for three years. When I finally get my husband to agree to try it seems like it's hopeless. 7 months now of bfns. Really need some icecream.