Advice please!!!

Jalisa
Hi everyone! I'm Jalisa and I'm 22! I have been sexually attracted to my best friend. We would always end up in an awkward situation because of the sexual tension between us. Even though he was always down to take things further, I would back out due to him having a girlfriend. Last Thursday I finally gave in. I had sex with my best friend. Unprotected sex! Twice! I haven't had sex since I was 15. I felt like a virgin all over again. Extremely tight! Him being rough (which I love) didn't help. I wasn't sore after but I did bleed for a couple of days. I've been beating myself up since its happened. We're obviously attracted to each other, but I'm not interested in being a side chick.