Uncomfortable with my body

Lillie
Well it took me a while but I had finally come around to being almost okay with the thought of the entire birthing process.
I'm very uncomfortable with my body especially all the private areas. I can't hardly stand to see myself naked or look at vaginal area or anything. I was almost comfortable thinking about it when my mom and aunt decided to give me the intimate details of how their "areas" tore and all the awful details. Now I'm back to feeling faint every time I think of it. I even get that strange false pain sensation thinking about it. I know when this baby is coming there won't be anything I can do about it, I just wish I could get a grip and feel more comfortable with myself.