Sick of not sleeping...

Lacey • Mommy to an Angel 1.14.16; wife 9.24.16; rainbow baby 4.4.17 && Baby #3 Due 4.28.20
I am so sick of not sleeping. I have so much on my mind, I'm scared to fall asleep due to dreams/nightmares, I can't watch tv because my boyfriend is sleeping and I also can't sleep because I have sciatica and no position helps... I'm just so frustrated and don't know what to do. Ugh! 
End of rant, sorry.