We just lost our second baby in two years last month, but this time we lost him at 20+5 (the first was an mmc at 7 weeks).

It's been a very difficult month in general, but this week I got my first period since losing him and I feel like all I want to do is cry. Every day. I thought I was dealing with it alright, but this has set me right back and it seems like such a silly thing to get upset about.

I can't talk to people I know about it because nobody has been there and they don't understand. Even my mum told me at the time to "cry it out and then move on quickly so I don't bring people down".

I know it will get better and we will be ok - I know that we will get pregnant again too - but right now I just need to hear that people understand and that I'm not being ridiculous.