I don't want this baby I don't want to have a baby anymore. I've wanted an abortion since I found out. I don't feel ready for any of this. Every day I talked about abortion with my boyfriend he said no. I just feel trapped scared and alone. It's his baby and he left us how can I raise a child alone all for having sex. All of this I have to be reminded of a mistake All because I thought we would get married everything would be okay but it wasn't. I'm not okay and I haven't been not since I found out, I needed support but who supports you when you get pregnant and realize you aren't ready and the guy he just wash his hands clean of all the tough things. I can't do this anymore I don't know why we didn't get an abortion why force a girl who you don't want to be with to have your baby for 9months why make her struggle alone with regret why do this to someone who deserved better why get a girl pregnant and walk away like she means nothing like your baby means nothing. I don't want to keep this baby how do I get adoption process how do I adopt our baby I don't want it.