I dont know if i even want a child anymore , its too hard even tho this is what women are made for . why would i want to replace my baby in heaven for another baby's love ? If i was ment to be a mother i would've never lost my first baby right ? I know it sounds crazy but i tell myself these things as excuses to why i can't conceive ... Two of my sister's are prego and my best friend and they all smoke weed and cigarettes while with child. I guess they deserve to be a mother more than me . life sucks