I have so many emotions going into our first 2ww after a missed miscarriage at 8 weeks in October. We waited one cycle per doctor's orders and tried this month using opks. I really want to be pregnant but at the same time I know that if it's positive my anxiety will be through the roof and life will turn upside down again. I'm also nervous because we would hear the heartbeat right before Christmas. It could make for the best or worst holiday ever. How do you ladies handle the anxiety?