POAS addict

I had a mc in October at 6 weeks. I'm trying to relax because this pregnancy just feels different. With the last one, I felt something was off the moment I tested positive. I didn't want to tell anyone, etc. 
I'm trying to relax but I'm finding myself taking a pregnancy test each morning just to see the line get darker. 
Is anyone else doing this? I'm not even sure how accurate it is because I have to use the bathroom several times at night, so what even counts as FMU? I'm trying to relax but find myself a bit stressed.