Last night I had sex for the first time in 4 months

Charlie β€’ 22. Trying to NOT get pregnant
He was really rough and also bigger than my last bf. Is it normal to like.. Bleed? This will be my 3rd time ever having sex and.. I'm just nervous. Could it be because he was too rough or do we need to use more lubrication.. πŸ˜¬πŸ˜•πŸ˜―