Anxious...

Well....its been 5 months since we started trying to figure out why we cant conceive. All our tests are done and it looks like the main issue is male factor infertility. Our RE cleared us for iui for next cycle...which started today. Did anyone else freak out when the time came to make the phone call? I was always praying for a surprise pregnancy because the thought of being pregnant makes me nervous. The thought of not getting pregnant terrifies me and i dont know how to feel confident in my decision either way. How do you turn off that stupid voice of doubt?

Infertility sucks.