ABORTION! Do or Dont!!??

I'm young. And I do want a baby but I can not bring it to this world! Me and my boyfriend (btw he doesn't know... Yet) we've been together for 5 years we still want to travel and get our careers going but this child will struggle and so would I. I don't want it yet! And if I do adoption I'll just regret it bc I've met it & seen it already & ill be sad asf!! What do I do....