Husband i love you and you have shown time and time again that you are invested in our relationship after all the crap that has happened.

Maybe its my insecurities acting up again and if it is I am so sorry but i blame your dad.

I thought you liked me the way I liked you. I wish you would have been more upfront with me in the beginning but I know why you werent.

You came home during your army leave while we were dating and found an engagement ring on the table. Your dad basically said get engaged to me or we will disown you. He did the same with the wedding... saying if we ever split even if i decide to leave you for whatever reason they would disown you and support me. Like WHAT THE HELL TYPE OF SHIT IS THAT????

I want to yell and scream at how bad of parents you have. They physically and emotionally abused you but not your sister. They of course think they did a wonderful job. They dont know you cant sleep at night. Loud bangs set you off and how much shit they put us through. Seriously almost every problem we have had stems from them in some way shape or form... im not trying to take blame away from us cause i know we have our own issues

How will i ever be able to know you chose me for me? I chose you because i love you and know you needed me. We have been through hell and back but how do i know you are with me for the right reasons?

I have been trying to deal with this for years... you say you love me and want to be with me and things have been good. But then my period came... things got heated and now im second guessing it all.

How will I ever be able to tell the truth from the lies...