AF was late.  But came today.  I was hoping that my gift to my husband this Christmas was to tell him we're expecting.   The hurt of not having a baby after 3 years TTC is sometimes too much.  I need someone, anyone to pray for me.  37 years old.  Not sure if will happen.  Sometimes the tears are uncontrollable.  But, I also have so many things to be thankful for.  God is still, always with me.  I just don't know His plan for my husband and I conceiving.