Nearly 3 years ago I lost my mum and this year I lost my grandma (mums mum) I can't stop crying and I feel so numb. I feel lost. Am pushing myself to go to work everyday and I know this might sound a bit gross but I only had a bath today because my so ran it for me. I just can't be bothered. The only thing that is keeping me going is him. He tries to cheer me up and he reminds me it's OK to cry.

Been doing so well last few months gotten engaged, been planning the wedding and working hard. now I feel so down and want to cry constantly. I miss my family so much. Wish I could just talk to my mum and grandma again :( both taken too soon :(