My mom and i just got into a blow out bigger then ever. She belive it was over a man im seeing but its was over what she said which is I will never be blessed with anything in life. I lost it. I went off. Told her why she expects the wrost for me. She's always said in arguments that she wish she never had me and ect. I tell her I hope she died. Tonight same thing but I brought my sister which is 40 and i 30. Im going through a divorce with 2 kids thats y im in her house. My sister never divorce even when her man cheated millions of times and on plenty times she had to walk 15 miles home due to it. My kids and I was left with nothing and i still help paid her bills but she claims i never did anything. Even my ex help pay a few bills. My sister barely helps. She called me hoe I called her and my sister and went into details how they were. My sister and my mom always been close. Close to the point where I recently heard them on the phone talking about me. I have just been tired so i exploed tonight on both of them, im just tired of being told im not shit and my life don't mean shit to her. I tried to apologize but she doesn't want to hear it. What should I do.