More bad news 😞

Went to a specialist about my cervix, since I no longer have one, and now they are telling me, I guess my water is outside my vagina, so now more complications, I'm only 26 weeks +2 and I need more than anything to make it to 36 weeks but it's pretty much impossible and I'm so depressed about my baby boy having to stay in icu if he is born this early. Won't be able to hold, cuddle, or breast feed, I don't know if I can handle this..