It's crazy to think that I would of been holding a little baby boy or girl next week. It's even crazier that not a day goes by that I don't think about it. I don't think that place in your heart is ever healed and nothing can replace the child you lost no matter how little they were. I'm excited for March to get here and hopefully that we get a first time go. But April 2015 with always be a constant thought in my mind.