Feel proud of myself😘 but upset

So a year and 11 months ago I left my abusive ex, and he raped me when I was 15 , I got pregnant then, i would have a 4 year old son now but I lost him when he was 2 :( breaks my heart everyday. I am 21 now. My ex has been sent to prison for everything he did to me. Been a long hard journey though.. Thanks for all the support been great :)