OK so me and the twins you , N & J. Let me start from when we met. We are 7 days apart. Them older than me. We grew up together and basically childhood best friends. Then they moved away. And for 2 years I didn't see them hear from them or anything. So we were in the 8th grade and my mom moved out where they lived. And I didn't know it. I went to her house and I saw them. I broke down and I was so happy. Over the year they were still going to a different school than me but we still got to know each other again. And me and J bonded more than I did with N… at the time. But we started getting feelings and yes I know we were only in 8th grade but… one night we stayed at his house.... My mom passed out and I didn't want to go home alone so I stayed there. And we slept in the same bed and in the middle of the night we kinda woke up at the same time and it was weird, like some i dont know what to call it but we just looked at each other for a few minutes and we both lend in at the same time and before I knew it he was kissing me or I was kissing him… we were kissing each other. And then we just kinda stopped and went back to sleep. A few weeks passed and J went to his dad's and N stayed at his moms. I went over there and we hung out all day and his mom got called into work (she's a nurse) and so he came to my house and he stayed in the couch and we watched scary movies and at one of the really scary parts I jump into his lap and buried my face into his neck and well I looked up into his eyes and we kissed. Intense kissing! And well in the end of that night I had equal feelings for both twins. It was the summer now.... My mom moved out and living with her boyfriend. I hadn't seen the twins for a few months but they moved back to were I was going to school so I would see them again! Fast forward school started and I don't have any classes with them. I can't do anything after school cause I have practice:( so I see them on and off during practice season. But homecoming come around and I went and so did N. And we kinda went together but he kissed me better than the first time he kissed me. I liked N. And kinda J. But when practice ends I see them more it made me happy. But when I found out that J was dating someone I hated I broke. And well I started going to the same church as them and so I got back close to N and J. And of N and J's friends asked me if I like them. I said yes he asked which one I said J. Their friend told J and J's girlfriend. J texted me we can't be friends yeah. So fast forward we ended up making up. I had feelings for N only. N was into stuff like weed... Well weed. And well me and my guy best friend got to talking and the faceted that I liked N longer than J come up and my gbf joked around about how me and N and him should have a 3some. And I told him to tell N that and he did. I stayed at a friends house that he stayed at a lot and we got high and me and N had sex. And then smoked some more. This was in March of 2015. I liked him... My best friend joked and said that I was in love with N. In May I told N how I felt and we weren't talking until July and he asked me if I would have sex with him again. I said yes. And I opened up to him about how I haven't been able to sleep and j was sad a lot and he said that is what he has and he has depression. So he says find something that makes you happy and keep it with you. And I started to notice that I was happy around him and so I told him and he stopped giving me hugs and it all stopped. And fast forward to last week.. N sold  g (a gram of weed) to a kid and the kid got caught and snitch him out. N went to Juve and the kid got night school. Well N got out and it all good he just has 90 days of night school. Fast forward to today… I always see J going to last period and we always give each other a hug but today it was different. When he hugged me he grabbed my butt. Like grabbed and squeezed it. And my friend looked at me and said just fuck already... And then she said minus well hit up both the twins. And i dont know how ifeel about i? J has a girlfriend. And I'm friends with her. Do I tell her? I dont know what to do? Sorry that this is so long. Please help!