Not getting my hopes up 🤔

So I was due for af 5th of dec so I'm like 5days late funny thing is we haven't been trying for the last 10months as it was starting to take control of us lol if that makes sense 36 months ttc have mixed emotions and don't have a test and don't wanna test . But now I know I'm late I carnt get it off my mind 😱  bd today to try and bring af on before she 7 days late only then will I buy test . But now that Iv let this be known am expecting her arrival... Although no signs she is on her way 😬 🙏#babyonthebrain