I am very hesitant to breast feed. When I did it with my son I would get consumed with hate toward everyone. Most likely depression. I DO NOT want to do that again and go through those feelings. It was absolutely not a bonding experience. I am willing to pump and bottle feed my breast milk. My hubby got mad because he said I can still breast feed in the hospital, I said I did not want to. I am very scared of it giving me worse depression because I am already feeling the baby blues. I am open to trying once to see how it goes, but I am afraid.... Any suggestions or thoughts with this issue?