Hey... I'm curious:

This is hard for me- I'm not excited. I want to be, I keep waiting for it to happen, it just hasn't [yet?]. I heard the heartbeat for the first time two days ago (super cool) and saw the baby for the second time (first time I received printed pictures)... it helps, it makes it more real (all the symptoms are so real-lol). I never had the desire to be a mom and never wanted this... universe/god had a different plan.

I'm 14 weeks today. I'm considering keeping it vs adoption (abortion was on the table a couple times and is not for me).

My question or point of this rant is: have any of you who wanted this, not been excited or have moments when you are not thrilled? Am I reading into my [lack of] feelings too much? Or is that a sign I'm not suited- was I born without the mom gene?

I know this may be rhetorical, and each experience is our own... I'm just curious if I'm really that 'messed' up....

I have a wonderful support group of friends and I have a counselor session in the near future... thanks for listening ♡