Some days I just don't understand. I have gave birth to two beautiful sons. One will be 6 in a few days(birthday boy) and my youngest will be 2 on the 27th of this month! Was really hoping I would conceive. I'm only 5DPO but I don't feel anything"different". & yes I know, you don't get true pregnancy symptoms until after implantation(6-12DPO) I just feel like this month is gonna be another failure. Another month of disappointment, another month of BFNs & another month of failing to be a true woman. How could I of conceived just 3 years ago but can't now?! Ughh. Im so scared something is wrong with me. What if I have cancer or something serious. Scared to death of surgery. Especially since scarring down there leads to infertility alot. I'm just so tired of trying & failing. I quit relying on OPKs this cycle, and tracked CM, cervix, & OPKs along with BBT(been doing temps thou) ughh, I just need a miracle. I hate that most of us have such a hard time to conceive when some parents conceive so easy and just beat & molest them. Breaks my heart we would be such loving mother's.

Just a rant, sorry!