So I've finally accepted after 2 years if struggling that I should really see a therapist. Basically my story is that the absolute love of my life who I was supposed to marry, who I had the perfect relationship with, cheated on me. At first it didn't bother me much, I was just pissed off. But it quickly bothered me more and more and got worse and worse and I have spiraled into depression and I don't sleep at night, crying all the time, problems at work, and I have some pretty destructive behaviours now...its really affecting my life. Anyway here's the issue: I found a therapist in my area who specializes in these kinds of things. But it costs $100 an hour and I'm a 20 year old full time university student who isn't employed. I creally can't afford it. I am still on my mom's medical plan because I'm a student and I could send all my receipts in and have it 100% paid for but I don't want her to know about it. We aren't close like that and she doesn't know about what has been happening. Any advice? :/