Attempting VBAC

Athena • Mom of three. Expecting number four in August. Excited and nervous.
This is my 9th pregnancy. I have three beautiful LOs and 6 MCs. The most recent was last year, so I'm praying my rainbow baby hangs on. 
My first birth was all natural vaginal and very easy. The second and third had complications and resulted in two emergency C-sections. I tried for a VBAC last time but felt like something was really wrong when I was in labor and wound up asking for a C-section (good thing because when my waters release in the prep room they were tinted with meconium.) 
I desperately want to try for a VBAC again. Natural labor was so rewarding and honestly so much easier for me. The only problem? 
None of the hospitals in the county have insurance for VBACs and no doctor will do them. I basically have to schedule a C-section and just not show up and go to the hospital once I'm in labor. 
Anyone else experiencing this?