Been thinking about how I haven't been able to carry a baby since my daughter who is now five. And starting to feel like I'm ttc for all the wrong reasons. I just want another baby so bad I don't think about anything else anymore. I don't care if I end up a single parent again, and that's such a bad way to think. Having a baby is so much stress and work and I'm not sure if my so will be able to handle everything that comes with having a family, granted I've never had anyone stay before. Idk just needed to get that off my chest.