He left the day I told him

My boyfriend of 7 years have terribly broken my heart. We had sex the night before I found out and everything seemed find. The morning I woke up and took a test I told him I was possibly pregnant becaue the line was very faint he asked how could I be sure before missing my period then and there is know he didn't want this. I got a confirmation by blood and he insisted I get an abortion becaue he's not ready for a kid. All the years he kept telling me he wants me to get pregnant and now when I finally am he abandoned me I'm so devastated I've been sick for 3 weeks in and out of the hospital can't eat and lost about 12 pounds. He hasn't seen me since the night before I told him I was pregnant

. Have not came to the hospital to see me while there nothing. He's a complete stranger to me now and I just tired of being sick in bed can't work and he's out living life. I deserve so much better I didn't do anything to deserve this. How do i live? How do i go on?