I no longer want to try. I'm tired of the months passing by with the same result. I'm tired of everyone else being successful. I'm not excited anymore. My when's are no longer a thing and if's are just as slowly leaving my vocabulary. I know many go through exactly what I currently am yet I feel so alone. When everyone around you has that glow and it's all you can hope for how can you not get so down. No one ever tells you things like this would be this hard. No one teaches how to cope with the emotions of this struggle. I feel hopeless, sad, and alone. I feel broken and useless. And at the moment all I want to do is cry.