Overdue, emotional, am i overreacting?!

I'm 40+4 with baby#2...went in for a check up today and was still only a fingertip dilated and 50% effaced! I'm high risk due to my history of cancer and weight loss surgery. My first child ended up being induced and then needing an EM C/S and I was in the hospital for about 4/5 days, the plan this entire pregnancy was to have a VBAC. At my appointment today they told me I could wait until I was 41+3 before a we schedule a section (can't be induced for a VBAC) which will lead to me recovering in the hospital for Christmas. I was diagnosed with my cancer when my daughter was 5 months old and spent numerous holidays in the hospital, she's 5.5 now and LOVES Christmas (what kid doesn't). I don't see this baby coming any time soon, I'm trying to stay positive but it's just not working. I don't want to spend Christmas in the hospital recovering from a section, taking the magic of the holiday away from my daughter... but I want a chance at a VBAC because I deserve that. Ugh....can't stop crying over what decision to make. I'm so hormonal.