Last year on Jan 4th I had an abortion. Nobody except my husband knows. The baby was ours together and the decision was ours as well.

I was extremely ill during my 13 weeks pregnant, I took a month off work and told my boss I miscarried (i feel horrible about this). We could have afforded the baby and we had the space for it as well but it wasn't the right time.

For us the decision was right but that didn't make it easy. It was awful, it hurt every single day and it still does. I miss my baby all the time and I still cry for the loss.

We are now ttc, this is our first month, and I feel guilty, I feel like a bad person and a bad mother to be. I believe in a woman/couple's right to choose but I wish I never had to.