I will love this baby just like I have the rest of my children. Healthy baby is best and priority and always will be. But the heart wants what the heart wants... And after birthing 3 beautiful mommas boys and actually allowing myself to dream of having a daughter this time, my heart just was a little disappointed. All I can do is accept the challenge of raising 4 beautiful, awesome sons of God and remember how blessed I am compared to others who cannot have children. I know this will pass and when I'm holding that baby, I won't be able to think of him as anyone else. 😊