My husband and I started trying to get pregnant in October and we're lucky enough to get pregnant right away. I was 10 weeks along when I lost my baby. I started getting severe cramps a few days ago and started wiping light brown when I peed, like old blood- but it got darker and darker throughout the day on Wednesday. I went to the Drs that night to see if we could find a heartbeat. I was so worried that I went to the office and they had just stopped seeing patients so all the receptionist were gone and the office was empty. The nurse saw me sobbing in the waiting room and spoke to the doctor who graciously agreed to calm my nerves and was genuinely sweet to me. She said that because I was just 10 weeks it was a possibility she wouldn't be able to find a heartbeat regardless and to not be discouraged if she wasn't able to. She tried for several minutes and wasn't able to find one and said we would schedule an ultrasound the next day to see the baby. I then asked if before I left I could use the bathroom to pee while I was there. She led me to the bathroom  and said she would wait for me so we could talk about scheduling the ultrasound in the morning. I started to pee and that was when I  passed a clot half the size of my fist into the toilet. I cried out and The dr came in and confirmed I was most likely losing my baby. She pulled me back into the exam room afterwards and made sure I was okay and said we should still schedule the US for the next day. I left the office and then drove home to tell my husband because I hadn't even told him I was going to the doctors. That night I passed several more giant clots and one of which I believe was the baby but I'll never be sure. The next day We went to the US and it was confirmed there was no baby in my uterus any longer. We are very devestated and this is such a bizarre feeling. You always hear of this happening to women but never think it would be you. I have moments where I am thankful that my baby won't suffer with whatever caused the miscarriage and other moments where I cry inconsolably at all the moments I'll never be able to share with my child. We want to try again once I heal a bit physically and once we heal a bit mentally. I would really like to get something that has the dates of my pregnancy to keep and cherish.sorry for the chapter book- it's easier to vent here then to people that have never experienced it before.