Help, previous miscarriage

Lisa
I need some advice, I have two beautiful children to my first marriage and I'm now in a new relationship and been trying for just under a year, I fell pregnant in September but unfortunately miscarriaged. Any idea when my body will be over this? My head is still messed up and I feel so teary and angry all the time. I know people go threw a lot worse so please don't bash me as I'm sensitive enough at the moment. I was told you are most fertile the first 6 months after losing and it's all I ever think about I'm just to glad my other two keep me on my toes and busy so I don't dwell on it. I also have abnormal cells and keep thinking could this have contributed to the loss? I'm just so frustrated 😩