Feeling really depressed.

Phylicia
My cervix been really high ever since ovulation. I am 13 dpo and it's still high I'll check it later today. It never dropped down at all and my cervix usually does after o. My cm was creamy white since ovulation and just started getting watery at 12 dpo. I took 2 hpt and they both came out negative and it wasn't with fmu but it's the cheapies Wondfo brand. I'll test again with fmu on 14 dpo which is tomorrow. I was really hoping I was pregnant cause I wanted to have great news on my birthday/Christmas. I am feeling so depressed. We've been trying for 4 years now. This is so upsetting. I feel like just screaming at the top of my lungs. 😭😭🙁🙁