Rant !

This would be the 2nd year of our rocky path we have faced. My husband leaves the house for atleast a week with no contact once a month EVERY MONTH I used to cry and cry and call him and text but now... I just don't give a shit? I'm literally more relaxed that his gone. Not to mention we have a child and another on the way and I feel impowered! I haven't contacted him infact I've told him not to contact me until he can grow up be responsible and be a father. 
I'm literally just over it. This is making me question my love for him now the fact I just don't care anymore...
I believe in trying everything to keep your family together and never giving up (unless they cheat) which he never has. But I just cannot be bothered anymore I don't even think about him? 
I feel like I have tried everything for my family, but it's all one sided and that I should actually 'just give up'