I know this is rather silly but: baby names.

Courtney
As stated I feel silly for this..but I legitimately feel sad at times over this...
Ever since I was a very small kid, I've always wanted a daughter named Lily or some variation of said name. 
Fast forward to now my SO already has 3 children. He sadly hasn't had contact with his oldest since she was 4 (she's now around 14) we are working now on figuring out where her mother is/if he can at least meet her again but I digress..  Her name is Lillyen. 
I wanted that name soooo badly for a baby and I know full well that it would not be acceptable (at least I don't feel it would, and I know SO would be rightfully uncomfortable) 
Anyone else ever have similar feelings? 
*please note I am not angry at my spouse, nor am I resentful, I'm just getting the feel out lol*