Don't want to be on the pill anymore.

Lily-Anne
I've been on it for almost four years and I am now ready to come off of it, but I can't without ruining myself mentally and physically. 
My PCOS isnt going to get any better whether I'm on it or not, the only good thing it does is control my acne and my mood swings, as off of the pill I get extremely depressed and unpredictable.
I forget to take it and it makes me ill, and everything in me is pushing me to stop taking it but I know it's better for me if I stay on it. 
What can I do? 
Is there any natural ways I can control my PCOS?
I desperately want to come off of it but it's the only thing that controls my depression and acne. 
Any information is greatly needed and appreciated.