So I bought OPKs and HPTs from Amazon. My sister opened my package and saw what it was. She doesn't like my boyfriend.... The man I already have two amazing and handsome little boys with. So she got mad at me and started yelling at me. Saying I need to kick his ass to the curb, not trying to have another baby with him. She told me all she wants from me for her birthday (which is in a month) is to kick my boyfriend out!!

So my sister ran to my mom and now I have the both of them yelling at me. Mind you, I'll be 30 next week!! Shouldn't I be able to make these decisions myself?!?! It's just a hard situation to be in because the people I should talk to about these things are so one sided. My family hates my boyfriend, and my boyfriend hates my family! If I side with one, the other gets mad!! So I have no idea what to do!!

My boyfriend agreed to expand our family last February. I got my implant out in March and we started TTCing. We were successful in June but lost the baby at 12 weeks in August. Have have been trying again ever since. When I lost the baby in August, my family said it was a "good thing" and " it's for the better" that I lost the baby!! Whose family says that in a time like that?!?

So going back to yesterday, when my sister found out I've been TTC again. I told her I'm returning them. But do I just stop TTC to make her and my family happy?!? Or do I keep TTC to fill the hole in my heart?? And expand our family like my boyfriend and I want to. Please help!! I have no one I can talk about this!! 😭😭😭