Testing before it's time

Shelby
My husband and I have been TTC for almost 2 months. AF is suppose to arrive Thursday, January 7th and I feel like this month can be the month. I have all the symptoms so I couldn't help but to buy a first response pregnancy test. It was negative and I am so upset. I don't know why I do this to myself, knowing I'm going to be discouraged. 5 days away.... crossing my fingers... and hoping for the best 😔